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The narrative delves deeply into Junger’s medical condition, explaining that he had an undiagnosed condition called median arcuate ligament syndrome (MALS). This rare anatomical variation, occurring in roughly two out of 100,000 people, caused his celiac artery to be compressed by a thick bit of gristle called the median arcuate ligament. This compression forced blood through smaller arteries that had dilated over time to compensate, creating a workaround that allowed Junger to remain unaware of the problem his entire life; Junger compares his body’s adaptation to traffic rerouting around a blocked freeway. One of these arteries developed an aneurysm that ruptured, causing Junger’s life-threatening internal bleeding. Junger notes that small aneurysms in this area are just as deadly as large ones, with about half of known cases diagnosed only after rupture, and a quarter of those patients dying during treatment.
The text offers a meticulously detailed description of the catheterization procedure performed by Dr. Dombrowski. It explains how the doctor initially attempted to access the ruptured artery through Junger’s groin, navigating upstream against blood flow. When this approach failed due to the complex twists in Junger’s vascular system, Dr. Dombrowski tried entering through Junger’s left wrist. The narrative emphasizes the innovative and persistent approach required, describing how the doctor used various catheters, including a cobra-headed guide catheter and a shepherd’s crook, to navigate the “tortuous” arteries. Eventually, Dr. Dombrowski reached the rupture, using micro-coils to embolize both ends of the ruptured artery. The text also explains the history of catheterization, including the story of Werner Forssmann, who performed the first cardiac catheterization on himself in 1929.
Junger recounts his semi-conscious state during the operation, and how he saw terrifying faces in the medical equipment. One glared at him with stern, “Aztec-like” features. The author details a significant moment in which he observed a wordless exchange between the doctors—a long look, a shrug, and a nod—interpreting it as a sign that they might not be able to save him. Junger also recalls the presence of his deceased father on the ceiling, who seemed to be urging him to stop struggling and go with him. The narrative notes that Junger initially doubted this memory but later confirmed it with his wife Barbara.
The narrative then shifts to Junger’s time in the ICU. He describes waking up to nurses discussing his miraculous survival. Junger recounts his physical struggles, including an episode in which he vomited a huge stream of blood. He also recounts conversations with nurses, including one who suggested he think of his near-death experience as “something sacred” rather than scary.
Interwoven with the hospital account are Junger’s reflections on mortality and near-death experiences. He ponders whether confronting death so directly crushes or liberates the human psyche. The author considers how religions attempt to impart an understanding of life’s preciousness through devotion, but suggests that a direct encounter with death might achieve this more effectively. Junger grapples with the fear that his brush with death might now accompany him everywhere like a pet, or more accurately, that he might now be the pet, with death as his new master.
The narrative includes several extended anecdotes to contextualize Junger’s thoughts on death and the unknown. He recounts a youthful adventure in Morocco, where he contemplated joining Sahrawi nomads in the desert. This experience is framed as a pivotal moment of choosing between the familiar and the unknown, which Junger relates to his near-death experience. The author describes running into the desert at dawn, contemplating whether he was “sufficient unto himself” or “eternally indentured” to his origins (72).
Junger also discusses Pip’s experience of being lost at sea in Herman Melville’s Moby-Dick. After being rescued, Pip experiences what Melville calls “madness” as a result of his confrontation with death. Junger uses this literary reference to explore the idea of confronting the infinite and the psychological impact of facing mortality.
The Tension Between Scientific Rationalism and Spirituality is a central theme in the second half of Chapter 1 of In My Time of Dying. Junger explores this dichotomy through his detailed account of his medical emergency and subsequent treatment, contrasted with his inexplicable spiritual experiences during his near-death state. Junger provides a meticulous description of his rare medical condition, median arcuate ligament syndrome (MALS), explaining how it led to the development of an aneurysm in his pancreatic artery. He details the intricate medical procedures performed by Dr. Dombrowski, including the use of various catheters and embolization techniques to stop the internal bleeding. This scientific narrative is presented with precision, emphasizing that death is a bodily process rooted in the natural, material world. When Junger’s father appears in the operating room as “a mass of energy configured in a deeply familiar way” (42), the inexplicable apparition is juxtaposed against the contrasting vision of the medical team, who are physically present in the room and engaged with the scientific and material work of saving Junger’s life. By contrast, the vision of Junger’s father urges him to “stop struggling and go with him,” introducing a question—go where?—that cannot be answered scientifically (66). The author’s struggle to reconcile these two aspects of his experience is evident in his narrative, as he grapples with the implications of this supernatural encounter within the context of his otherwise scientific understanding of the event.
Junger further explores this theme by discussing the historical context of medical advancements. He mentions Werner Forssmann’s invention of cardiac catheterization in 1929, highlighting how scientific progress has made it possible to survive conditions that would have been fatal in the past. This historical perspective underscores the power of scientific knowledge and medical technology in preserving life. At the same time, Junger contemplates the spiritual implications of his experience, questioning whether his brush with death has fundamentally altered his perception of reality. He ponders whether this experience has given him insight into an afterlife or a deeper spiritual realm, even as he acknowledges the lack of scientific evidence for such phenomena. This tension between scientific skepticism and spirituality is not resolved in the chapter but rather presented as an ongoing internal conflict. By presenting both perspectives without definitively favoring one over the other, Junger invites readers to engage with this fundamental philosophical question and consider their own beliefs about the nature of existence and consciousness.
Junger reflects on Death as a Source of Meaning and how his near-death experience has altered his perception of life and its value. He ponders the idea that confronting mortality can lead to a profound appreciation for existence, suggesting that “one good look at death might be all you need” to understand the preciousness of life (75). This theme is further explored through Junger’s recollection of past experiences, such as his adventure with Sahrawi nomads in Morocco, where he contemplated the nature of choice and identity in the face of the unknown.
Junger describes the psychological aftermath of his brush with death, expressing fear that the experience would forever alter his relationship with life. This worry about The Impact of Near-Death Experiences is a developing theme in the book, as Junger gradually realizes that he has control over how the experience impacts his psyche. At this early stage, Junger imagines the memory of his near death becoming a “ghastly pet” that accompanies him everywhere, preventing him from being fully present in his life. He then inverts the metaphor, imagining that “I was now the pet, and my new master was standing mutely with the lead watching me run out the clock” (74). This analogy illustrates the psychological danger of a near-death experience: Such a direct confrontation with death, far from granting a new appreciation for life, might leave him trapped by fear.
The allusion to Pip in Melville’s Moby-Dick accomplishes a similar purpose. Pip is alone at sea when the Pequot rescues him, and his confrontation with the vast emptiness—and therefore with death—renders him incapable of speaking or behaving in a way that others see as rational. Like that of the Fool in Shakespeare’s King Lear, Pip’s “madness” is a form of wisdom, and his jaded perspective is a vital brake on Ahab’s vengeful pursuit of the white whale. Junger uses this allusion to argue that a close encounter with death can have lasting psychological impacts both positive and negative.
Like the book as a whole, this section blends medical detail, personal reflection, and philosophical inquiry. Junger alternates between describing the intricate medical procedures that saved his life and exploring the existential questions raised by his experience. This structure mirrors the author’s internal struggle to reconcile the scientific and spiritual aspects of his near-death encounter.
By Sebastian Junger