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A gets an email from Rhiannon with “normal-sounding” questions (“How was your day? What did you do?”) but A feels these generic questions could simply be Rhiannon being polite: “And while I once thought what I wanted from her was this normal, everyday tone, now that I have it, the normalcy disappoints” (181-82).
A tells Rhiannon s/he can’t see her because today Sallie Swan has a cross-country meet that Sallie/A must go to. A is relieved to be running. Running allows A to stay focused on the body: “If you are racing to win, you have no thoughts but the body’s thoughts, no goals but the body’s goals. You obliterate yourself in the name of speed” (182). A is hungry for this obliteration, eager to get away from tormenting thoughts.
Daniel Stevens’ family has a lot of activities planned for Saturday. This family does not waste time. They are up early and go to Baltimore, visit an art museum, have lunch at the Inner Harbor, a visit to the aquarium, a viewing of an IMAX movie, and then dinner at a seafood restaurant. They are a close, happy family. But A does not feel a part of it: “They are so caught up in their happiness that they don’t realize I’m not really a part of it. I am wandering along the periphery” (183).
Despite his preoccupation with Rhiannon, he is still able to keep some perspective. He can recognize that today “is a good day, and that certainly helps me more than a bad day” (184). A has the ability to appreciate the lives that can make A’s day much more pleasant. But s/he also realizes that, because of his/her sadness about Rhiannon, s/he can’t connect to their happiness: “There are moments I just sit in my frame, float in my tank, ride in my car and say nothing, think nothing that connects me to anything at all” (184).
Orlando often spends his mornings sleeping in, which gives A plenty of time to check the latest Nathan stories. A finds a website set up by Reverend Poole for others to share stories of possession. A pities some of the people s/he reads about, especially those “who need professional help” (185). But when A gets an email from Nathan telling A to “get help,” A wants to be cruel to Nathan by revealing that A was AJ, and making Nathan fear future anonymous visits from A (186). However, A quickly recognizes his own pettiness, saying, “Not getting what you want can make you cruel” (187). A also receives an email from Rhiannon that is vague and disappointing. Normalcy is not what A wants.
Once A loses his/her close connection to Rhiannon, connected only by email but unable to see her physically, s/he feels untethered and lost. A is back to feeling disconnected from everyone, just like s/he was at the beginning of the book. Only this is worse because at least at the beginning of the book, A could find some advantages to his situation. Now, he only feels the disadvantages.
When A feels this way, the book’s chapters are shorter, since days without Rhiannon lose their meaning and A has less to say. He feels trapped and on the outside of everything. Sometimes this makes A want to push his/her body so hard that A’s mind has no energy to think, such as when A is running. At other times, it makes him want to zone out or “hover on the periphery,” as A does with the Stevens’ family. And yet, at other times, it makes A feel cruel, the way A feels when s/he wants to taunt Nathan.
By David Levithan